The Moment I Became An Advocate

Before kick off at my first-ever NAMIWalks with NAMI-NYC Metro on a recent soggy morning, a speaker remarked, “Rain won’t stop us, because we go through rain every day.” The comment was met with cheers, including mine. The speaker’s words well captured the essence of mental illness. It is an often-unpredictable condition; episodes can land … Continue reading The Moment I Became An Advocate

New Year, Old Habits

Last Tuesday my husband and I married after a whirlwind process--an elopement with immediate family planned in five days. Though friends and family members expressed surprise, the decision was a long time coming. We had discussed marriage for months, ultimately deciding the act--more than a lavish ceremony--mattered most to us. Fast forward almost a week and … Continue reading New Year, Old Habits

Putting Myself In the Way of Beauty

I’m sitting among the musty shelves of New York City’s oldest independent bookstore, unable to stop smiling. After more than a year of living here, I’ve ventured—at last—to my first writing meet in the city. For months I blamed location—the relatively remote Woodlawn section of the Bronx—from joining fellow writers at work. Sure, I write … Continue reading Putting Myself In the Way of Beauty

Thoughts on Escaping the Comfort Zone

This week I was challenged in ways I didn’t anticipate: co-lead a classroom discussion followed by an invitation to lead part of an upcoming meeting. The key word here is lead. Though comfortable in small groups and one-on-one, I am often categorically shy, holding back to allow others to seize the reins. We often define … Continue reading Thoughts on Escaping the Comfort Zone

What If Death Wasn’t Death At All

Last August we adopted thirteen-year-old Fluffy "Senior" from Mount Vernon Animal Shelter. His inclusion in our home made us a family. After months of failed treatment for a mouth infection, Fluffy recently stopped eating, drawing sustenance from plentiful cuddles and grooming instead. As we move deeper into his final days, I find myself thinking of my curmudgeonly-but-good-at-heart … Continue reading What If Death Wasn’t Death At All

The Dangers of the Self-Narrative

In an interview in the July issue of The Sun, Gary Greenberg, a controversial psychotherapist critical of psychiatry, believes that rooting mental illness almost entirely in biology overlooks the complex environmental, social, cultural, and political mores that shape identity. The article—“Who Are You Calling Crazy?”—was soon wrinkled, dog-eared, and covered in yellow highlighter. My favorite … Continue reading The Dangers of the Self-Narrative

No Longer Fearing the Mind

Today I attended my first-ever meditation session in an airy Chelsea studio, sitting with a dozen other novices on a stack of cushions, terrified I might become too restless to hold still, that others would notice. Fortunately, we were assured to be patient with ourselves. No matter our level of expertise, the pursuit of perfect posture … Continue reading No Longer Fearing the Mind